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Maladaptive Day Dreaming

Have you ever just sat on a desk or laid in bed for hours without realizing it because you were Day Dreaming? I have.

This has been going for over two years now. Originally, I thought I was suffering from ADD or something in that manner. But, I have done my research, and this is 100% real and people actually are suffering from this.

What is MDD? Well, it’s simply the action of day dreaming constantly without realizing how much time is passing by. Many times, the dreams are very complex and detailed. Most of the times, you just look like you’re in a daze. Now, people with MDD aren’t mentally ill. They don’t exchange realities with their dreams and they don’t act them out or anything. They’re not crazy. haha I’m not crazy.

How does this happen to me? Well a quick demonstration:

Today, I went to high point coffee to get some coffee and read for my Cell biology class. Pretty normal stuff. I get my coffee, sit on the table, and open my book. As I’m reading, I look at my surroundings and it being the “love” month.. I noticed a lot of lovey dovey couples everywhere.. and I get a thought.. Hmm, I wish I had a significant other. — Now normal people would have just sighed and finished reading the book or something.. but no, not me. My mind didn’t stop there. It continued on making a scenario. I began to picture, if I did have a significant other, what would he look like.. so as my scene is playing in my head, this person’s appearance is constantly changing.. then, how would we meet? and so on and so on… this went on for a whole good hour. Can you believe that? Damn.

Now, that’s just a very simple example of what happens during MDD, I do this a lot, very constantly. I would day dream of me doing and being anything I could put my mind to. A super star, a singer, musician, skydiving, even being in the library studying. It all begins with ONE thought. And kaboom, the movie starts playing. The problem is that it goes on for hours. Not just a few minutes. Anything triggers my imagination to have these long hours of daydreaming. Then, I snap out of it, and continue doing what I was suppose to do. It’s really crazy.

Unfortunately, this is a new subject being studied, and as of today.. Not many are aware of it, or is there medications for it. But, it is real. I am living proof it is. So, if you suffer from this, you are not alone. And notice that I did say ‘suffer’. I say this because… It disrupts my life in a way that I stop what I’m suppose to be doing. For example, in my scenario above, I stopped reading for my exam.. something I needed to be doing.

Let me clarify that this doesn’t mean that you’re crazy, or stupid or whatever. I happen to attend one of the most well known universities, with a very competitive GPA. I actually had a Pharmacy School interview today where they assured me that I was more than qualified. So, it doesn’t mean you’re stupid. It just means, that maybe you’re different? I don’t really know.

I hope to learn more about this and know of ways to manage it. As of for now, I try to maintain myself occupied. I mean occupied and in actively doing something that requires me to move and be active. If I sit and try to read a book for a long time.. I will probably day dream. But, if I’m let’s say talking with friends, hanging out, watching a movie or whatevs, it doesn’t happen. It’s weird… But, yeahh. Just thought I’d share this with you all.. In case you’re suffering or think you’re suffering from this.

Good Day.

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Find your balance in life

If you are a dedicated student, like yours truly, (haha no i’m just kidding) you know that there are decisions to be made at where you stand with the world.

Now, that I am advancing into professional or graduate school, I am realizing that I really cannot have everything. Has any of you heard the saying, “In college you have to pick two of the three: Studies, Sleep/Rest, or Social Life? ’cause you can’t have them all.”

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Well, looking back, sophomore year was definitely my craziest college year ever. I “tried” to juggle all three choices, but in reality I had chosen Studies and Social Life until my body threw the white towel. That’s when I shifted my choices to Rest and Social Life, I know, not the wisest decision. But at that time, that was the “cool” thing to do. Go out and have fun!

Now that I’m finishing, my mentality is somewhere else, it has a vision. It has future goals. Therefore, I have chosen Studies and Rest/Sleep. In reality, having a social life is great but is definitely time consuming. Therefore, I deleted my facebook, twitter, and instagram! I now have a lot more time to focus on my classes and on myself. I get my sufficient hours of sleep and even have thrown working out in my schedule. I work out three times a week for about an hour, sleep about seven hours a day, in school about four hours a day plus the extra 4-5 hours I spend outside of class doing homework, and finally I work 14 hours per week. Sounds like a busy life doesn’t it? Well it is.

Everything seemed to be going great! Until, Mr. Loneliness decided to arrive. Lately, I have been feeling pretty lonely even though I have roommates, coworkers, and student mates during classes, but it’s not the same. Everyone has a life of their own. Ever since I stopped socializing, I haven’t really kept in touch with many of my “friends.” I sometimes even wonder if this loneliness is depressing me? I got invited to a few parties tonight, but in true honesty, I didn’t even want to get out of bed. Yeahhh, crazy stuff huh? How you can feel lonely, yet when you’re invited to something, you decline?? I am going crazy over here. hahaha

But enough of my depressing story! The point I am trying to make is that, even though you feel like you have only so many options, you can make an option to balance yourself with all of the options. The key word is “balance”. Did you guys get that? B A L A N C E. They say too much of anything is not good, so don’t try to overload yourself with something. Have a little bit of everything. Except if you’re studying for a test or something. In that case you better be studying your butt off to do well! Just remember that education is important, but not everything.

Now that I have experienced both of the far ends, I’m going to try to work out my balance in life.

– a quick comment I want to make is that, make sure that you are hanging out with the right people though. I feel like maybe that’s why this is happening to me. I’m trying to stay away from the “bad” crowd who will encourage me, or influence me to do things that are not “right”. So, surround yourself with people that will bring out the best in you.

To conclude this lovely story full of advice, if you are going through a similar struggle, I just want you know that it is okay. We will go through rough times in life, but you just have to toughen up and keep on going and find a solution to the problem.

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Ain’t Nobody Got Time For That!

I remember in high school how much trouble I got because I was texting “all the time”.¬†And yes, it was the thing to do when you were younger. It was a luxury.

Now, I am complaining. haha I have been accused several times of texting people only when I “want” or “need” something. Instead of texting to create a “conversation”.

And yes, I will not deny it. I am guilty of such thing. As one starts to mature, more responsibilities get added on to our daily lives, things that consume your time. If I know how valuable time is, why would I waste somebody else’s time?

On a normal day, I am pretty darn busy and I do get annoyed when someone sends me a text message with a simple “hey”. Lord, I can already see where that conversation will go.

“hey” – “hello” – “what’s up” – “nm, you?” – “nm, just chilling” – “cool”

Ain’t nobody got time for that!

I rather be direct and straight to the point.

“hey, let’s hang out, you want to do something tonight?”

“hey, let’s get lunch”

“hey, haven’t talked to you in a while, call me when you get the chance and let’s catch up”

etc etc. See? Doesn’t that just sounds so much better?

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My January Jam Songs!

20130129-143440.jpgSo, this month I have been jamming to a lot of Indie Rock. Very soothing to my ears. The songs I am about to list aren’t new. Some of them are from 2008, haha but that doesn’t mean they’re not good!

I would love to hear what are the top songs you’ve been listening to this month.

Do share!

So here’s the list:

The Fratellis – Whistle for the Choir
Radioactive – Imagine Dragons
Intro – The Xx
Crytalize – Lindsey Stirling Cover
5 Years Time – Noah and the Whale
You Only Live Once – The Strokes
Where is my mind? – Pixies
Fluorescent Adolescents – Artic Monkeys
Zero Gravity – Kerli
Basic Space – The Xx

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Everything in moderation – Coffee

20130128-194945.jpgI don’t know of any college student who has not ever had a cup of coffee throughout their college years. I remember during high school never would I have had imagined I needed such drink. As a matter of fact, I didn’t even like it. I thought it was only a drink older adults drank because it was “the thing to do.”

I remember several times during my routine doctor visits my doctor would advice me to lower my caffeine intake because it was causing minor health problems. I kind of disregarded the advice since I loved it so much – I’m sure many of you have done the same thing at some point. haha

Well, my need for coffee got so bad that if I didn’t have my coffee everyday at the right amounts, I would start getting bad withdrawals. I remember my first withdrawal. Oh, it was this terrible headache that turned into a migraine It was definitely long-lasting. I had it for a whole week straight that it interfered with my studies and sleep. My mood was horrible, and I was extremely irritable. Even a simple good morning from a friend was annoying. (haha sadly but true).

At that time, I did not know the cause of it. I did not think that it was because I did not have had caffeinated coffee. That weekend, I decided to make myself a coffee to try to “relax,” and yes that was the end of it. After a few sips, it was as if nothing had happened. So I guess you could say, I was a caffeine addict. Yes, I was.

Since then I started to put limitations on myself because, it seemed like a big problem. I had suffered a whole week because of a drink. I began to think a lot on the subject of “addictions.” I began to sympathize to those who had them of any kind. They needed help, I needed help.

Since then, I began to limit my intake. Trust me it was rough. Going from 5-6 cups of coffee per day, to now maybe 1 cup of coffee per week was a struggle that took me a good year to accomplish. It took me that long because I had to get my body to adjust to such changes, ya know? I could have easily just stopped drinking coffee.. but my body would react to it.

Now, coffee has become very pleasurable. I now can find its taste, and differentiate all the different kinds. (you taste buds really become immune when you drink so much)

My favorite is Dark Roast, 2 splendas and no cream. Mmm. Delicious..

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It’s the little things that matter

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When you’re alone, away from your family going about your dreams.. It can sometimes get a bit lonely. I know this because I’m in that same position.

And when it hits me the most is when I check my mail. Most of the times it’s empty, and when I do get something it’s either ads, coupons, or work/school related.

Sometimes though, I get either an unexpected letter or package and I automatically feel loved and remembered. Specially when a family member sends you stuff like… Comic books? I’m a female that never got into such things, but I can truly say I love it! It’s the little things that matter and should be appreciated. Thank you for the wonderful package!

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What does it mean to be alive?

So what does it mean to be alive?

According to Biology, every living thing is made up of cells, it must reproduce, grow and develop, obtain and use energy, respond and adapt to their surroundings.

Are you and I living to survive?

Or are we doing something greater and meaningful?

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